My name is Taylor and I am a Carboholic…
Sometimes I think saying it out loud will prevent me from giving in to my cravings but then I realize I am not that resilient. I struggle every day to not pick up a carb a take a bite. I thought going back to a gluten-free (GF) lifestyle would help me leave my old habits in the past…. boy was I wrong! If anything, I have become even more aware of my addiction to carbs (withdraw symptoms are real).
When I decided to go back to GF, my mom said, “well you can always indulge every once in a while,” (keep in mind this was said while she was making a delicious chocolate cake). Yes, I am not allergic to gluten and it is not going to kill me to have one piece of chocolate cake, BUT I am a junkie for carbs; once I fall off the wagon there will be no getting back up.
My mom is an amazing cook, she makes virtually everything from scratch, which is why it is so hard to resist her cooking. Just last night she made pasta salad, I had to physically remove myself from the table so that I wouldn’t reach for the bowl. When you live alone, as I do during the school year, it is easy to avoid certain foods because you just don’t buy them (especially when living on a college budget)! In a house that is regularly stocked with Italian bread, pasta and homemade dessert, I am constantly surrounded by temptation.
Temptations follow me throughout my entire day; especially when working at a summer camp! For the majority of the day, I am stuck with second-grade girls wining and crying (that alone is enough to send me into a carb eating frenzy). It is normal for stress to contribute to my cravings, although I know I shouldn’t eat carbs my emotions take over and I justify needing to eat them anyway. In the moment I may feel good but afterwards I get the worst feeling of regret.
I think of every new day as an opportunity to make good choices when it comes to the food I eat! I can go to work and eat the munchkins in the morning (that fill the office with a beautiful fresh bakery smell) but I choose to stay committed to being GF. I may not always resist temptation, but I will always try to push myself to do better.
Having the strength to resists temptation can be extremely powerful.
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